tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1370199963263801222023-11-15T09:27:51.113-08:00Surviving twinskristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.comBlogger83125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-70840889698665161602012-05-02T20:13:00.000-07:002012-05-02T20:13:01.779-07:00motherhood/versus girlhood dreamsReader,<br />
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Today for the first moment ever I had the overwhelming feeling that i'm not going to be able to accomplish anything for myself because i'm a mother!!! Crazy...i know...and sad to that i felt this way for a few minutes but after the moment passed I realized that other women have felt this way too. All i ever wanted to do was be a mother...and its the best thing i've done. It is stretching me in ways i never thought possible! i love those moments of snuggling with my kids and hearing them laugh..but then i have those moments of, gosh i wish i had more time to craft, more time to read, more time to write, more time..to accomplish all the silly dreams that run through my head. In fact as i write this its hard to concerntrate because my four year old is talking!! Haha. Never a moment alone to even think ...but that's okay..she wants to read a book with me..so i don't get to read or write for myself ..but i will foster the love for those thing in them until they start school and then you better believe i'm doing all those things for myself...well...at least until they come home!Hakristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-8319932966928504582011-08-11T10:03:00.000-07:002011-08-11T10:16:21.858-07:00life lessons...dear Reader,
<br />How the painful life lessons are... I wish I was the perfect person that I want to be. I wish I <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">didn't</span>' have to learn and grow anymore. For the growing brings very painful "growing pains". This week has <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">taught</span> me that I'm not as trusting in my own <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">abilities</span> as I thought. I <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">didn't</span>' realize that my ego was so <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">fragile</span>! It <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_5" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">embarrasses</span> me that I would even feel this way.
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<br />I have learned that not all inner thoughts should be shared, because those who love you will jump to your defense to protect you. Those you love you will want to do something to take the pain away, even if the pain is <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_6" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">superficial</span>.
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<br />How do I become and react the way I should? Why does the natural man/woman take over sometimes even despite your best <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_7" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">intentions</span>? When <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_8" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">I'm</span> in pain, i tend to hide and wait for it to pass...but others want to say my feelings for me. Its fine line to know when to be quiet and let the storm pass and when to say something. How do you know?
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<br /><span id="SPELLING_ERROR_9" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Relationships</span> are very funny. Any good <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_10" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">relationship</span>, family or friends take a lot of hard work, understanding and <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_11" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">forgiveness</span>. Sometimes I lack in the forgiveness department. Sometimes i forget to turn the other cheek and realize that the person is not trying to harm or hurt me...they just don't see things how i see things.
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<br />Funny how when you've wronged someone it feels like you've <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_12" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">committed</span> a "sin". The wrong "hangs over your neck" like a huge stone that you <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_13" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">desperately</span> want to break free from. I hope that I can be a better person...I hope i can over come the "natural man". I hope i can see past my own feelings and think of others more than me. I hope to right the wrongs that have taken place. I hope that <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_14" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">forgiveness</span> is on both sides. I hope that those who have been hurt by my protector understand love for someone else can make you do and say things you would not normally. I hope that i can be the person next time in a situation like this that i can be proud of...I hope I have learned my lesson...I don't want to go through this again!!!
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<br /><span id="SPELLING_ERROR_15" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Kristen</span>
<br />kristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-28755044830722143912011-08-02T21:14:00.000-07:002011-08-02T21:19:42.536-07:00Bieber Fever has offically hit our home!!!Dear Reader,<br /><br />So <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">Beiber</span> Fever has finally hit our home...do I have a ten year old girl who is in love? Nope, I have a ten year old boy, who now wants to be <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">Bieber</span>!!! For the past two days he has spend almost all his waking hours watching the movie "Never, Say Never, and then practicing his hip hop dance moves. He's actually pretty good!!! I wake up in the morning hearing <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-error">Bieber</span> songs and go to bed with "Baby, Baby, Baby <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-error">OHHHHH</span>... I'm going a little crazy!<br /><br />He is also wanting his hair to be long as well.. Too bad we just shaved it off for football! <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-error">Hahaha</span>. I love it...it giving me a taste of what is to come when my twin girls finally become this age. I cant' wait to take them to their first concert and hear them scream and cry like crazy girls. For the record I NEVER did this...I may have LOVED the New Kids on the Block but i kept all that <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_5" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">craziness</span> in side!!<br /><br />Who was you childhood star crush???<br /><br /><span id="SPELLING_ERROR_6" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Kristen</span>kristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-52644568157067679752011-08-01T18:33:00.000-07:002011-08-01T18:59:10.475-07:00How does media affect/effect you??Dear Reader,<br /><br />Today I started thinking about how watching different shows can affect how i think of my life. For example, yesterday I came across the show "keeping Up With the <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">Kardashins</span>" ( spelling?). After watching the show i noticed that i had this urge to "spend money", like getting my nails done, new clothes, etc. I didn't like the feeling. Then this morning as i lay in bed, (sick) i came upon a show called "Downsized". It's about a family who used to have a great income and was living the so called "American" dream. However, two years ago the husband lost his construction company and they were struggling to support seven kids. His wife was trying to start a new cleaning business. She spoke about how <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">embarrassing</span> it was to go from having a house cleaner two times a week to cleaning her friends homes.<br /><br />The family showed how they were trying to cut all the extras things like, eating out, cable, sports clubs for kids, etc. They spoke about how this really helped them see the important things in life. How their kids were learning how to budget and how to work hard to earn money. The kids were also giving money to the parents to help out with things.<br /><br />After watching this show, I had a much different feeling than after the first. This time, i felt so blessed that my husbands income is pretty steady, that we are able to afford sport clubs for our kids, that even though i coupon for groceries I do it for fun...for the challenge, not because i have too. It made me want to budget even more! To look for more ways to save! Aaron and I always talk about how we don't know what the future will bring...we are very aware that at any moment life could turn upside down.<br /><br />I walked away from the show with so much gratitude! It was <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">weird</span> to realize how media affected me so much. It has taught me a very important lesson.. First no more <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">freaking</span> <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_5" class="blsp-spelling-error">Kardashins</span>...and be careful what i watch because the very thing on T.V can change how i feel about myself and my life.<br /><br />How does Media affect you?<br /><br /><span id="SPELLING_ERROR_6" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Kristen</span>kristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-51140243211160022112011-07-18T21:47:00.000-07:002011-07-18T21:54:46.742-07:00Family gathering....Dear Readers,<br /><br />Summer brings many family gatherings, which I love and at times feel overwhelmed by. My husband comes from a family of 15 siblings...half's, step, and so on! It's so great to get everyone together but wow...we can make a real <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">scene</span>. Tonight the family went out to dinner and thankfully we had most of an out door patio, but i could still see people watching our crazy bunch. Kids running around, people eating and talking with loud voices...it was a great time.<br /><br />Such gatherings make me thankful for the people i have in my life. With so much family come a lot of drama...but also the security of knowing that there is lots of support. It is wonderful for my own children to have so many cousins to play with and get to know.<br /><br />Summer time family gatherings are even better than the holiday's because they are stress free! The late setting sun make the gatherings last long into the evening and we all go to bed totally exhausted! I'm loving summer time :)kristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-20596458013296209252011-03-27T08:39:00.000-07:002011-03-27T08:48:14.434-07:00Mama will you play with me???dear Reader, I hear this statement from my daughter Sydney at least a hundred times a day! I struggle with my answer. Do i play or do I do the many things that need to get down to run a successful household? Each time she ask my answer differs depending on what im doing that moment. Sometimes I can drop what <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">I'm</span> doing and spend time with her and others....well dinner will not cook itself!!! I am not a mom who <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">plays</span> with Barbies really well, I mean its not great conversation with a 3 1/2 year old...now doing a puzzle or a board game, I'm all over but alas...this girl loves to play with barbies or stuffed animals. My sisters love to see my "try" and play with those toys....like i said, <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">I'm</span> not very good with it. <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">NOW</span> my sister <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Michelle</span> is a great "play with me mommy"...when she's not pregnant!!! <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_5" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">ha ha</span> During the summer it is she who is in the pool with her kids and mine while I lay out reading a book!!! We all have our strengths right! I think that if all my sisters and I were one person we would be perfect, <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_6" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Erica</span> is the smart one, Michelle the playful, <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_7" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">gorgeous</span> one and I"m....crazy!!! So what will my answer by today when my daughter ask "Mama will you play with me?"...Well its Sunday so "Yes" baby....I will stretch my <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_8" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">imagination</span> and play with you!!!! <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_9" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">But can</span> we do a board game? <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_10" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Kristen</span>kristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-32136484737678015102011-01-12T19:45:00.000-08:002011-01-12T20:02:25.612-08:00do your kids annoy you or is it just me?dear reader,<br /><br />It has been one of those days...the one where i found myself crying a lot and wishing I was on some far away island. Lately i've been feeling guility about the fact that my kids annoy me!! Now the 9 year old is actually fine. It's the 3 1/2 old twins that drive me up the wall. Picture this: right now i have two very unhappy girls screaming in my face as I type because Daddy just told them it is time for bed. However, after he caused this ruckus he has now disappeared leaving me with kids screaming in my ear!<br /><br />I love my kids I do! But i struggle with getting past how annoying it can be to be their mother!!! The whining, fighting, screaming, making unimaingale messes etc. are really getting to me. I'm hoping this is just a phase for me. I find myself wishing this time away and hoping for them to be five...i remember five was pretty cool with my son. But who knows...they are two drama filled girls.<br /><br />The dilemma is that at the same time they are annoying me, i can still look at them and love them so stinking much. A simple hug, kiss or I love you from them just melts my heart.<br /><br />i know children are a blessing....Uh...Lord...lets pour out some more JOY in Hoke house please +:)kristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-50896692649041959792010-10-06T13:15:00.000-07:002010-10-06T13:28:23.546-07:00Rainy Days...Dear Reader,<br />Life has gone on and this blog...well...hasn't. I haven't quite felt myself for the past few months. Things got very crazy, not like they weren't before with the twins..but I've been a bit off. With it now being my favorite time of the year, I"m starting to feel my old self come creeping back. I've haven't even done any creative writing for almost two months now and that's a very long time for me. I've basically been very burned out with life. I never understood how much being a mother was going to require of me! Plus, I never realized until now how much alone time I required!!! I guess that's why I'm a mom of three and not six!!!<br />Updates with twins, They are now both potty trained!!! I can't tell you how happy that makes me! They are busy with school and soccer, but i think soccer is on its way out because they don't play <u>unless i"m on the field with them. and that is quickly getting old!!!! Okay I don't know what I pushed but can't get rid of the UNDERLINE!!! </u><br /><u></u><br /><u>I'm still on the all might quest to move my family to Utah! Too bad my eternal companion is not on the same page, which is okay, because i am very lucky to live where I do!! (but still love utah the best!</u><br /><u></u><br /><u><em> My </em>book "multiply and replenish has finally been sent in for review with a publisher! It takes a few months to get a response so we will see.</u><br /><u></u><br /><u>I'm loving the rain we've had all week. For some this weather makes them depressed for me it makes my soul light! Nothing better in this world then writing and listening to the pouring rain outside!</u><br /><u></u><br /><u>kristen</u><br /><u></u>kristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-87946052397329722342010-07-21T16:32:00.000-07:002010-07-21T16:40:29.964-07:00potty training is for the BIRDS!!!Dear Readers,<br /><br />So the thing about twins is that even though they were born at the same time, they learn to do things at different times. For awhile it was Syd who did things first. She held her head up first, crawled first and walked first. Paige just seemed to be content with letting her "older sister" do things first. However, now things has switched gears as Paige has been potty trained for months now and Syd could careless about sitting in a pile of poop!!! I've tried talking to her, reasoning with her, though that's a hard thing to do with a three year old. When I tell her how yucky it is to sit in poop she just laughs at me!<br /><br />I'm not at all worried that she isn't going to get it, i"m just so sick of diapers!!! I wish she would hurry it up, but i also am careful not to push her as I now that could be a disaster! But oh i wish she would just get a little spark of competition and want to be like her sister. :)<br /><br />Kristenkristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-43997073193043091922010-06-02T13:34:00.000-07:002010-06-02T14:08:03.207-07:00What was I smoking last weekend???Dear Readers,<br /><br />For the Memorial Day weekend Aaron took Tyler up to a BYU sports camp. Since I was going to be home alone with the girls for four days, I decided I needed to go somewhere. I rounded up my sisters , their kids and mine and we headed to Palm springs. It was supposed to be a relaxing vacation in the sun. I should have known better...<br /><br />Things got off to a great start when we were packed and ready to go only 2o minutes behind schedule. Really no big deal. We grabbed the kids some treats and hopped on the freeway by 12:20 pm. The freeway was free and clear and I felt a little smug about how smart we were being for leaving early on a Friday so that we didn't hit any of the weekend traffic. Then suddenly the freeway stopped and I hear my sister Michelle say. " Oh, yeah they mentioned something on the radio about the freeway being backed up." okay" I think, no problem. We'll have a little traffic and then be on our merry way. Fifteen minutes later it was clear that we were in some serious trouble. I checked the mirrors and decided to break away from the pack and cross over the yellow cones into the fast track lane. I was desperate! I had a car full of kids!! Again I thought we might be in the clear. The fast track was moving...well...FAST. But to my horror I saw brake lights ahead. It didn't take me long to realize they had shut the whole freeway down and we were being diverted off the highway!<br /> Once we made it off the highway, McKenzie AND my sister both needed potty breaks. It had now been forty five minutes since we had left and we were still only a few miles from my home. I pulled into a gas station, hopped out and dragged McKenzie with me. it seemed that everyone else who was caught in the traffic had decided to have a "potty break" too. I tell Michelle, "she is just going to have to go on the side of the road! I'm not waiting in this, we need to get going!"<br />However, after much talking , Michelle convinced me it was better to wait for the bathroom to open up.<br /> With everyone 'empty", we drove off in the direction of the freeway on side streets hoping to pass whatever obstacle was on the freeway. Needless to say after 20 minutes of driving around in circles we realized that none of the side streets went through. We completely turned around and decided to get back on the freeway going the opposite direction and make a big loop to get back to where we needed to be. Again, everyone else had the same idea!!! By the time we had been in the car for two hours, my sister called it quits. "Lets just get off, go back to the house and leave later tonight." At first I didn't want too. I was already here and i wanted to keep going but the kids were starting to go out of control so I consented.<br /> The kids spent the rest of the late afternoon swimming in the pool while the moms pouted over the fact we should have been laying out by a pool at a beautiful hotel. To break up the time, we took the kids out to dinner. Must give props to our waiter who was awesome and didn't even flinch when I grabbed his butt! (by mistake of course!) After dinner we received a call that the freeway had just opened and we needed to get on the immediately to beat the rush. I pushed the pedal to the metal and we took off. There was still some traffic which took up about another 1/2 but once we passed the crash site (overturned tanker) we were one our way.<br /> The mood in the car became upbeat and we couldn't wait to get to our hotel room. Things went smooth for a while until McKenzie had to go to the bathroom AGAIN! I was in no way going to stop at a gas station so I pulled over to the side of the road. Which made my sister scream about how crazy I was to pull over on the 91 freeway to have my three year old pee!" Realizing i was being a little crazy I drove to a gas station.<br /> Finally all was well and we were ready to have some fun! Once we pulled off the main highway towards Palm springs the excitement in the car grew, then McKenzie threw up all over Michelle!<br />Now my sister can not handle throw up. She gags like crazy! Me? I'm okay with it, it's better than poop and heaven knows I have had my share of both! So with Michelle dry heaving and McKenzie crying and covered in throw up, we finally pulled up to our hotel! To which Michelle exclaimed that there was NO WAY she was walking through the lobby, smelling like throw up and looking like h*ll at such a nice hotel.<br /> It took a few minutes to clean everyone up and gather our stuff. As we filed into the lobby to check in I heard a woman say. "Wow, they have a lot of kids."<br /> I felt like saying " Yes lady, we do! would you like to keep one for the weekend??<br /> In the end it was a fun but very exhausting trip and I would do it all over again.... but next time ladies either we leave the kids at home or we hire some help!!!<br /><br />Kristenkristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-86693473407735474882010-05-23T19:39:00.000-07:002010-05-23T19:48:48.684-07:00Cries of the children...Dear Readers,<br /><br />If I cried as much as my children do daily I would be an exhausted mess! I"<span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">ve</span> often thought about keeping a log on how many times my kids cry...and <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">i'm</span> not just talking about my 2 year old twins. Today my son had a break down as well. I hide in my own closet <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">probably</span> once a month and have a good cry as well. It seems to release so much tension and often I feel better but kids seem to do it so <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">automatically</span>. I guess it comes from being unable to express themselves well. We as adults can tell someone off if we are upset, we can calm ourselves down when we are feeling out of control, we can verbalize hurt feelings when we need to. But all kids know to do is CRY!<br /><br />I can't wait for the day when words are replaced with crying as the crying drives me out of my mind! Of course then maybe <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-error">i'll</span> long for the crying because my kids will be telling ME off!! <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_5" class="blsp-spelling-error">Hahahaha</span><br /><br />Kristenkristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-25100139637640514052010-04-26T10:45:00.000-07:002010-04-26T11:01:15.348-07:00universe and me still at Odds?Dear Readers<br />This is how my last 12 hours went. 10pm- me bed (alone <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">aaron</span> out of town) 11pm <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">McKenzie</span> cries . She finally has caught the cold Maire has been dealing with the past few days. I get her back to sleep and <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-error">drag</span> myself back down to the couch (where I sleep when Aaron is gone, with my pepper spray I might add!) 12am- <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">McKenzie</span> crying again. I see what's the matter, give her some medicine and get her back to sleep. Again I drag myself down to the couch. 1am- more crying but this time I just listen until she stops...terrible mom! 3:30 am- again with the crying and again I listen until it stops but this time I have to get up because now my head is pounding and I'm so stuffed up that i can't breath. I caught the cold!<br />Finally, able to get some sleep until time to get son up for school. <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Things</span> were then going well <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_5" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">until</span> I <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_6" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">announced</span> to the girls we needed to go to the store for more milk and medicine! All Heck broke loose. No one wanted to get dressed but <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_7" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">McKenzie</span> was the worst. <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_8" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">She</span> had me rolling around on the floor with her with my legs wrapped around her waist trying to keep her still so I could get her <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_9" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">dress</span> over her head. But that girl is freaky strong! <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_10" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Every time</span> I got the dressed pulled over she somehow <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_11" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">managed</span> to get it off. Add to this that Maire thought I was hurting <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_12" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">McKenzie</span> who was screaming at the top of her lungs, started to hit with with any toy she could find crying for me to stop! It was madness I"m telling you! After ten minutes of this struggle, i grabbed my cell phone, ran to <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_13" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Tyler's</span> bedroom and locked the door. I sent a 911 call to my neighbor who said she could come over so that I could run to the store.<br />Right after that call was placed guess who comes knocking on the bedroom door carrying her dress asking me to put it on??? Yep, my little devil <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_14" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">McKenzie</span> who then started to have a fit because now she couldn't go "bye bye"!<br />Ugh! i hate when my children are sick! Lord help me today!!!<br /><br />kristenkristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-64303442431960341312010-04-23T13:18:00.000-07:002010-04-23T13:36:31.313-07:00THe universe doesn't seem to be happy unless I'm covered in blood!!Dear Readers,<br />My poor little McKenzie has done it again! It seems that she is definitely going to be accident friendly. During lunch this afternoon I set both girls at the table to eat while I snuck in the living room to catch some scripture reading. Hadn't done it in the morning yet and i was feeling like my crazy day was only going to get worse unless i got the "spirit"! I was only three versus in when I hard the loud bang of a chair falling. i held my breath to see if a cry was going to follow...it did! Though it was more of a scream than a cry. <br />I ran to the kitchen to find McKenzie face down on the floor . I pick her up to find she has blood oozing from her mouth. Remember she is my bleeder. Once she starts it's hard to get her to stop! I grab a towel stick it in her mouth because now I'm getting blood on me. I check her front teeth to make sure they are still in tacked and the move on to other body parts to see if anything else it hurt.<br />With the outside checking out, I pull the towel from her mouth and try and find where all the blood is coming from, praying with all my heart that she hasn't bitten so far through her tongue that she will need stitches. <br />Of course she is very upset that I'm trying to look in her mouth. I have her drink a glass of water in an effort to clear the settling blood from her tongue so I can check the wound. As she drinks the cup fills up with a mixture of blood and water. YUCK! She takes on swallow and gags it right back up. I don't blame her! Finally I rush to the freezer for my old remedy for mouth sores, ICE CREAM! It takes up a few minutes but she finally finishes the ice cream and lets me take a peak at the damage.<br />The very back of her tongue show indents from her four back molars but nothing that won't heal on its own. Plus she has a pretty nasty bump on her chin! My poor girl! She has got to learn to be more careful" I tell her.<br />She promises she will !<br />We'll just see about that!<br />Kristenkristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-82532213317219575932010-04-19T20:05:00.000-07:002010-04-19T20:11:53.763-07:00Potty training!!Dear Readers,<br /><br />so potty training has officially started in our household. McKenzie has been ready for awhile but i have been putting it off not wanting to "deal" with the process. However, with summer approaching and a week on a houseboat coming our way...it's time to stop with the diapers. Marie is not so into it so I think I'll just concertate on McKenzie. She had only three accidents today and two of them were because I forgot to ask her if she needed to use the restroom. It seems that every forty-minutes she has to pee. I put a timer on to remind me but didn't hear it a couple of times :0. I can't wait until both girls are done with diapers. I remember with Tyler how wonderful it was to not have to change dirty diapers.<br /><br />With the girls who poop (each) three times a day (6 poop diapers), it will sure make our house smell a lot better!!!<br /><br />Kristenkristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-27591334547534561482010-03-05T12:36:00.000-08:002010-03-05T12:43:30.320-08:00Peaceful morning..Dear Readers,<br />Today so far has been a smooth day. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">McKenzie</span> stayed home from school sick while Marie headed off to school. I can't even put into words the world of difference it makes to just have one child at home at a time. There was NO screaming, NO fighting, or crying! <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">McKenzie</span> watched some cartoons while I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">exercised</span>. then she played ever so nicely with her ponies while I wrote a little and picked up the house. She was a perfect angel!<br /><br />However, now that Marie is home...the calmness is ending. It must be just as hard to be a twin as it is to be a mother of twins.<br /><br />P.S I've <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">officially</span> started sewing! Already made two dresses (jumpers) for the girls! Having a sewing machine is so fun! Project Runway here I come!! :)<br /><br />Kristenkristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-83856476100223460112010-03-02T14:38:00.000-08:002010-03-02T14:49:37.552-08:00Ever think "This is just crazy?"Dear Readers,<br />Ever have one of those days where the kids are going wild, you stub your toe for the "<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">hundredth</span>" time that day, the dishes seem never to get done, the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">laundry</span> looks like a monster trying to claw it's way out of the laundry room??? Do you ever just think "this whole motherhood deal is...well...just crazy?"<br />I've said it before and I'll say it again, it baffles my mind how i can love something so much that gives me <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">anxiety</span>, sleepless nights, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">migraines</span>, weight gain,etc? How can I love something that just 'hurts' so bad sometimes? This was my thought today as I drove my screaming, crying, never seem to be happy in the car, children to the park for a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">play date</span>.<br />As their screams got louder, I wondered why I wasn't just staying at home in my P.J's and having them watch movie after movie??<br />The answer is...I love them! I love this <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">never ending</span> , joyous, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">exhausting</span> job of mine! Though there are day's i can't even see straight, and I feel like 'vomiting' from the stress of raising twin girls...i wouldn't have it any other way. REALLY, i wouldn't. I'd be missing out on so much joy if I didn't have my children, sure I'd have my hair and nails done all the time, and ever dime would go to my clothing but really... nail polish chips, clothing gets old and my hair...well that's another topic.<br />Motherhood is IT for me. Nothing will ever compare!<br /><br />(just don't ask me how I feel about it around 7pm at night, my answer may be very, very different) :)<br /><br />Kristenkristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-989236072505492372010-02-09T19:59:00.000-08:002010-02-09T20:06:04.913-08:00Rain, sick kids and body aches make for a very LONG day!!Dear Readers,<br />Still dealing with a very sick little girl. Marie has just been miserable. I feel so badly. As a mother you just want to take the sickness away. However, there is an upside when the girls are sick...they are quiet! I always know that one of them is about to get sick when they start laying on the couch and actually watching a whole program on t.V. <br /><br />I myself am starting to feel those little signs of a sickness coming on. I had very little patience today and found myself doing a lot of "yoga" breathing today to calm myself down. It's just not right to lose your temper with a sick child!<br /><br />Enjoyed the thunder and lightening we had this afternoon! I just can't get enough!<br /><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">kristen</span>kristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-33330879742221953572010-02-01T18:49:00.000-08:002010-02-01T18:55:41.424-08:00Your eggs are 90% gone by the age of 30!!!Dear Readers,<br /><br />So the newest study out on <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">women's</span> biological clock is that by the age of thirty, 90% of a <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">woman's</span> eggs are gone!! WOW!!! But there is no need to panic girls. You still have 10% percent to work with...and really it only takes one egg at a time. Now if you were thinking about being like the woman who has 19 children...maybe there should be some concern but for the rest of us I think this study is just another waste of energy.<br /><br />I don't think this study is going to make anyone run out and get pregnant however, it may put having children more in the <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">forefront</span> for some. But lets face it, if you are an L.D.S woman like I am, we usually don't wait to have babies. (sometimes the Lord makes us wait) but majority of L.D.S women seem to be doing just fine past the age of thirty!!!<br /><br />We make that ten percent work for us!!!<br /><br />Kristenkristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-13415612749271037262010-01-26T14:19:00.001-08:002010-01-26T14:26:39.678-08:00Ever feel the need make some money???Dear Reader,<br /><br />Okay, so for awhile now I have been trying to find ways to make extra money. I thought about doing temp work again as a dental assistant one day a week, but then I'd have to find someone to watch the twins, then I tried <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">eBay</span> for awhile...uh...didn't work out. Then I moved on to amazon and sold used book, this actually worked well for a while but truth be told I ended up getting so busy that I ran out of time to properly do it!! Plus, the books that didn't sell drove my husband crazy! I might start doing it again but on a way lower scale. who knows.<br /><br /> Now I'm trying to do some freelance writing over the <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Internet</span>. But before I can apply for the "real jobs" I have to write a certain amount of articles. This isn't too bad since I love to write and <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">I'm</span> actually learning stuff in the process. Like does anyone know what "national Sorry day is?? I DO NOW and last night I learned how to make lotion from goats milk!!! Who knew!!<br /><br />I don't know why I have this urge to earn my "own" money, but I do, though my time is kinda tied up in this thing called "raising a family"!!! <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-error">hahaha</span>. I know my time with come to get out there and make some "real money". There is a season for everything right???<br /><br />Kristenkristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-6175025502216471562010-01-25T20:25:00.000-08:002010-01-25T20:31:57.325-08:00I'm back!!!...Well almostDear Reader,<br />Okay so I finally got a <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">computer</span> to work with (mine is still down). I never realize how long it takes for a <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">computer</span> to get fixed! Anyhow, just got back from a wonderful ski trip to Utah with friends. The first day of skiing was a major challenge for me, in fact I quit mid-day and hung out in the lodge :) It was a great break from the kids, but they are just so darn cute when you see them after a few days . <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">McKenzie</span> had a lot to tell me about her weekend. I understood most of what she was saying. The <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">excitement</span> that crosses their face when your kids see you after a few days is priceless! It's the best part about going away.<br /><br />Thankfully the girls were good to me today! though the teacher at school did say they got into a "smack down" with each other. We are still working on the whole fighting issue. Hopefully tomorrow is just as good as today.<br /><br /><span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Kristen</span>kristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-61450622182760952792009-12-26T08:56:00.000-08:002009-12-26T09:07:38.535-08:00Looking forward to the New Year!!Dear Readers,<br /><br />All the gifts are open and the baking is done!!! I'm so happy the Holiday's are over! I'm so tired of wrapping gifts, making gifts and baking until my arms ache. But every minute was worth it. This was a wonderful <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Christmas</span>. The kids had a blast. The girls really got into the "<span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Christmas</span> spirit" by ripping up the wrapping paper to get to the gifts. I really didn't even have to help them, they got the idea pretty quickly. Now I just have to go through their existing toys and pluck some out to give to charity. Out with the old and in with the new!<br /><br />As always my husband was into gift giving. He did a great job....though maybe just a little overboard!! <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-error">Hahahaha</span>...he is such a little kid when it comes to <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Christmas</span>.<br /><br />Thanks to all our family to put up with our screaming and non-sharing twins! 2 1/2 year old twins girls is .....well....H*ll! There is no other way to put it! The whining alone has pushed poor hubby over the edge. He said he can't wait to get back to work. "work is like a <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">vacation</span> compared to this". I just shrugged my shoulders and replied " Now you know why I've lost my mind!"<br /><br />Hope everyone has a great day!<br /><br />Kristenkristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-38410845830995598992009-12-22T16:41:00.000-08:002009-12-22T16:48:00.327-08:00broken computer...trying to survive the holidays...Dear Readers,<br /><br />My computer finally died, and I've been DYING without it. Aaron is "letting" me use his even though he is afraid I will break it.<br /><br />The past week has been crazy as the holiday's always are. The girls have been extra hard and my patience have been extra short! However, we have had some <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">highlights</span> with friends going gun shooting (the best) and looking at <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Christmas</span> lights while sipping hot chocolate and chocolate chip cookies. By the time Christmas day rolls around I"m so ready for it to be over but i am trying to enjoy the season.<br /><br />I'm grateful for the past year and I am looking <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">forward</span> to the upcoming year. The girls will be one year older and I will hopefully be one year wiser!!! Thank you to family and friends for enriching my life so much. I hope I do a little of the same.<br /><br />Merry Christmas,<br /><br />Kristenkristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-69723892846758006102009-12-16T21:13:00.000-08:002009-12-16T21:25:33.251-08:00Finals...Guns...Oh My!!Dear Readers,<br /><br />The girls have been very whinny the last few days and today I almost lost my mind!! Sometimes it's just so hard to keep patient when someone needs you attention all the time. On days like these I do a lot of deep breathing!<br /><br />I was able to get some Christmas wrapping done! Which made me feel good. Also I am making some homemade gifts for the first time this year and though I was dreading it at first, I found I really enjoyed myself. I've been busy tonight trying to study for my Shakespeare final this week. Can't wait for this class to be over and done with. I'm sick of trying to figure out what the heck the characters are saying!<br /><br />Aaron and i have talked for over a year about getting a handgun for home protection. Both of his father's have one and some friends of ours as well. I was against guns in the home for a long time but with certain things happening to us in the past year and with Aaron gone a lot I'm now all for it. I don't ever want to feel unprotected again. It was a funny thing to walk into a gun store and ask for help with picking out a gun. Thanks to Fred who was very helpful and even let me "shoot" a few different guns. It was very surreal. Now all I have to do is study for a gun safety test, pass, pick out a gun (after i try some out at a shooting range) and wait ten days for the gun to be in my possession. I can't wait to learn how to actually use one properly!! It will defiantly make me feel better at night. Now when someone tries to break into our home we won't have to use our sword again!!!!<br /><br />Kristenkristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-71842402426263759362009-12-13T16:09:00.000-08:002009-12-13T16:19:51.796-08:00rambling....Dear Reader,<br /><br />So for years my favorite movie has been "To Kill a Mocking Bird", and it still is but now I am adding "Legends of the Falls". It's rated R, I know! But <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">I've</span> only watched the t.v version . Today I was sat watching it for the third or more time, I realized that I love the whole story. I feel the pain and the joy that the characters feel. Plus, come one, it's vintage Brad Pitt. Who doesn't love that???<br /><br />the girls have been pretty good this week. however, one day it took me a good twenty minutes to get them into the car since I can't pick them up. Sometimes they take advantage of this fact. The tummy is continuing to heal nicely. I wore heels today at church and as amazed at how much you use your core for <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">certain</span> shoes! It felt like every ab muscle was tightening up to balance me.<br /><br />We had a wonderful weekend spent with lots of good friends. The child's gave yet another awesome Christmas party and the ward party was probably the best ever. They served Prime Rib . Normally i'm not a big meat eater, but I ate every last bite of my slice of meat. I felt llike John Candy in the movie "the Great Outdoors" when he tries to eat that big piece of steak !That's what i love most about the holiday's, spending time with people you care about.<br /><br />Kristenkristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137019996326380122.post-23054437820514012772009-12-08T08:54:00.000-08:002009-12-08T09:00:26.699-08:00feeling great!Dear readers,<br /><br />Today is the sixth day and I am feeling great. I had a wonderful sleep and was able to get breakfast and the kids ready for school this morning. Now I am exhausted and my back is killing me but I have a few hours I can rest so I'll be fine. Today I get the tubes taken out. Can't wait! They are the hardest to deal with. I remember with my breast lift the minute they took the tubes out I felt so much better.<br /><br />Girls were really cranky this morning and I was so thankful that the preschool director said they could come every day this week to help me recover. I don't know what I would have done if they were home with me right now.<br /><br />Tyler has an all star game for football this weekend and will have practice this week. Even though he loves playing <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">football</span> he hates going to practice. he was excited when it was cancelled yesterday because of the rain! By the way, loved the rain yesterday!!! I love a good storm.<br /><br />Happy b-day to the cutest nephew in the world, Ethan! love you, Auntie Kristenkristenh2ohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09265390604564489465noreply@blogger.com0